/lit/ - Literature

How is it possible to work 9-5 and live a fulfilling and non-soul crushing life? It is fucking soul crushing to spend most of my daylight hours in an office

>work from 9-5
>commute which takes around 40 minutes x 2
>eating, cooking, shaving, doing the dishes, random other chores
>have to exercise every day and have to do it at 6 am or else the gym is too crowded
>have to read books or else I'm a pleb
>need to spend time on 4chan (my only social life)

>have to do this as an ugly beta blackpilled male with no friends, no female attention ever, never been to pub, club, or party
>know chad and Stacey get everything handed to them and all women see me as a disgusting ugly freak
>see tonnes of celebrities on TV with lots of free time and giant houses
>see footballers and musicians who are free spirits that you could never ever imagine scrunched up in a seat for 8 hours on Microsoft excel (Trump has that same uncucked nature- you can't imagine him being a repressed officecuck)
>rent tiny flat in London and it takes iron willpower which I don't have to avoid junk food binges everyday
>see m/billionaires and CEOs on TV claiming we need more immigrants to lower wages and I'd be a racist loser if I disagreed
>see teenagers in silicon valley with the balls to quit comfy universities with thousands in credit card debt and become millionaires

The last one is brutal when I don't have the initiative to live like a monk (no coffee to harm sleep, healthy food) and make use of my few hours of free time on the weekdays after work.

And seeing Staceys at work or on the train is brutal. I waste my life knowing society sees me as an ugly disposable battery and all women are disgusted with me, have rich boyfriends, and chads on tap through their phones. And deep down every adult is their teenage / uni self- I had no female attention back then as well and I was kind of a loser.

>the best translation of The Odyessy’s book 11 is Ezra Pound’s Cantos 1
>Pound didn’t translate the rest of the Odyessy

Reading feels so unsatisfying these days. It is a consumercuck activity

>wake up at 10 am and browse internet on my phone while in bed
>had stayed up late last night browsing blackpill content and had a dream where I had to be room mates with a 7/10 girl who told me to leave the room because she wanted to fuck a chad
>go to gym then go to work and immediately leave because lmao0things to do
>6.30 pm
>go to library as the streets are still busy with wagies coming back from work
>feel bad that I don't have a fulfilling job and feel bad that I'll fail my upcoming interviews due to ugliness and autism
>see the interesting books at the library
>come to the epiphany that I should work on many things at a time while doing little bits in each sitting so I can get more done- this will fix my life and give me motivation
>realise 2 minutes later how stupid this is
>now going in to central London to drink coffee and feel sad about life
>feel sad seeing so many Stacey wagies

>be an ugly beta 27 year old male with no friends or social experiences since school, no female attention ever, never been to pub, club or party
>too ugly and not normie enough to pass job interviews for better jobs
>become the ugly loser loner nobody talks to within one day of all my jobs
>have fully taken the blackpill / lookspill and know I will have a life ten times harder than any normie's
>feel like a cuck when working hard because women and Chads get everything handed to them
>being outside is demoralising because people seem disgusted by me but being inside makes me feel like my youth is gone
>get lied to by a society that wants to use me as a disposable battery

>wake up at 8.30 am
>browse internet on phone then read brideshead revisited
>go to gym
>go to full time job and leave after 20 minutes because I have nothing to do
>go to drink coffee in central London but realised I have less money in my bank account than I thought so decide to go home
>teenage boy and girl talking loudly on the underground train which triggered me because women are disgusted by me

I'm just so low energy and demotivated. I will never get friends. I will never get a gf. I will never have a successful career when you have to be an ubernormie in the working world. I wish I could be productive when I get home after work but my motivation is dead.

>be me
>be an ugly beta 27 year old male with no friends or social experiences since school, no female attention ever, never been to pub, club or party
>too ugly and not normie enough to pass job interviews for better jobs
>become the ugly loser loner nobody talks to within one day of all my jobs

>alarm wakes me up before 8 am
>after I orient myself and shower, brush my teeth, get changed, it is somehow 8:10

>have interview for job that pays £6k more than my current one
>current job requires me to do almost no work or spend time in the office but the contract ends in August
>new one would require me to actually work 9-5 and has a slightly longer commute
>new one is uninspiring Excel monkey bullshit
>new one is in Canary Wharf so I'd be surrounded by rich as fuck Chads and Staceys who make 10x as much as me while getting everything handed to them

>in the underground train I read a 200+ post pol topic I made last night about the horrors of wagecuckery
>realise I'm going to be late to the interview and decide not to attend
>get off at Bermondsey and walk around for a few minutes wondering how it can be such a shithole
>decide to go and drink coffee in a different part of London
>have to wait for 3 trains because the first two were packed with wagies
>now drinking coffee and will probably turn up to work at around noon (officially 3 hours late, in practice 3 hours early)

Currently walking around Notting Hill Gate, contemplating my subhumanity

>Girl I had a slight fling with a few months ago reconnected with me last week
>She's recently gotten really into reading
>We've talked about books every day. And talking more than we ever did before
>Gone out twice to book stores. Gone to her house and read
>Last time we got to talking about past relationships and our current status on relationships
>Says her last circumstance was with a guy she was friends with then they had sex and it was weird after
>She says she hasn't cared about guys or having any relationship in months
>h-heh yeah me too
Goddamint, I have no chance. I don't get it, she just randomly talks to me again after months, am I just the only person she knows who reads books or something?
I just wanna cuddle with her while we read

i read 193 books this year

>>10378358

I can't even think of it

I'm a hollow, unfeeling robot

Please end what you would call my life

Eternal life.

>>10053771
>Think back to your teen crushes, yeah, all of them were probably fucking/had been fucked for the longest time while you were daydreaming about kissing her on the cheek.
delet this

>tfw got fired from my job
Why is life so brutal lads

Is there any decent literature that deals with depression as a central theme?

I hope, someday, everyone can forgive me for my failures and my cowardice. If I were just a little stronger, and a little braver, I could be virtuous and do all of the things I want to do, but won't. There is no one to blame but myself.

How much control do we really have over our own lives

Do we really have as much control of our own lives as we think we do

What are some books about losing control of your life

>gf

What are some books about losing control of your life

>>9613526
Same here, only I graduated with a BS in Biochemistry and have no gf. Instead of three university jobs I applied to a bunch everywhere. I managed to secure 1 interview, but it's for a part-time job that doesn't pay much.

Not knowing what to do with your life is shit, desu. Maybe I'll write a book about it someday.

What are some books about being lonely

>>9541448
Yep.

>>9493204
I genuinely thought I was on /fit/ there for a second until I reached the end of your post.

>>9487515
Don't tell me that, anon..

I was so hyped for this series and i hate the feminist bullshit, fuck..