/lit/ - Literature

I've started messaging this girl from high school who I had no interest in since she was quite homely.
However, since then, I've had many encounters with women who I've tried to be romantically involved and they all paled in comparison to her talents. She was much better than me or anyone else at band, and she still continues with that and other fine arts production. All other women I've met with were seemingly very shallow and had no real interests or hobbies they pursued as much as she has.
Since our time in high school, she has matured graciously. She used to be very skinny and somewhat alien looking, but since aging to her mid 20's she's become more "full" to put it shortly, even though she is still quite lean.
Maybe it's my libido talking from not having watched porn or masturbated for over a month, but I know she was one of the only girls that showed interest in me before I did for her, and seemingly only me.
I've decided I'll wait until she comes back to my state to visit later this year before I try to get intimate with women, since I've only had her on my mind, but it hasn't stopped me flirting a bit just to practice with her.

tldr gibe pusi pls