/lit/ - Literature

He started attending Church after reading "At Tikhon's". Honestly really powerful chapter. Just shows how much power shame has over your actions and goals. You are ready to do even evil things to be feared or ostracised or whatever but even after commiting great evil you will be afraid of shame. "Oh, he thought he made something... great. Yeah, he greatly overestimated his abilities". "Heh, what a worm. Raped a girl and then she killed herself. I'm trembling in fear!"
Dostoevsky wrote about immense pride that criminals have in prison. I think it some sort of holding it together for prison is one of Hell zones on earth: it takes real penitence to overcome it without making a wolf out of your soul.
Why be sheep and not wolf?
Wolf doesn't know what a sheep it is. Wolf lives devouring. Sheep dies devoured. But both die anyway. And then there will be weep for they remember every deed they commited. Wolf will see it never was one: it was a sheep or a goat.
Life whatever weak it may be is always stronger than hatred for it cannot destroy life. There will suffering. But joy will be too. Despite whatever happened.