/lit/ - Literature

I don't know what I am, and knowing it and accepting myself is maybe my only actual real dream. But for participation sake, I divided what I could aim for in life in 2 possible general ways of being:
The way of nature
>own various businesses
>dominate and push out competitors, essentially ruling over a county and having great influence over it
>be an erudite, have a couple of graduations and a few more languages under my belt, intellectual mog
>age gracefully, nurturing an aesthetic of restrained power and self reliance
>make men crave my approval and respect, deny women my love
>make enough money to get away from everyone
The way of Grace
>get involved in charity
>own a plot of land and build a self sufficient homestead in it
>live a simple life, with minimal access to technology
>spend my days in nature, wood working and taking care of my livestock
>minimal reading, as to not be an escapist or indulge in the worship of knowledge aka vanity
Opinions?