/lit/ - Literature

>>21314406
>>21314682
A continuation of my blogposting that i feld the need to continue. I woke up in the middle of the night and cried a little. Even my fantasies are lost to me now, as even in them i cannot will it see myself being happy with another person. I just think to myself, how a body and mind like mine, neither of which posses a single attribute of what is generally in the realm of handsomeness, beauty or virility, could ever attract anything but revulsion in the opposite sex. I at least used to be able to mend my mind of the harsh reality with daydreaming and fantasies but even those are now lost to men, as even in the domain of my own mind i'am now rejected or laughed at. I'am rejecting, as if on principle, that something as ugly and frail as me should be allowed felicity, it would be a crime of nature and beauty. Now the only thing i can dream of, and hope and pray for, is that gods above, or something else, give me the strength and courage to point a pistol at my ribcage and pierce this senseless heart of mine.

>>20786320
Agreed. I don't think he would have done half of the fucked up things he did if he hadn't been routinely tortured and psychologically abused. These people should share some of the responsibility for the way this has ended.

Would forgoing siring offspring free me from this accursed cycle?

Why is it prefered for devout christian to negate the world? To just pray to God all day, then he is closest to God?
Now lets take an example of sports. Sport is beautiful, teaches motorics, character, fighting in a safe manner, bettering yourself. Sport is beautiful. A lot of people truly and purely love sports. Is that wrong? You could argue whether God created sports or man, but God created posibility of sports. Will sports activities exist in heaven? I dont see why not, they are good.
And for another example mathematics. You are literally discovering laws of universe, laws that God created.
Why then should i reject everything of the world, including good things? What will heaven be like, just praying all day? Or will we be trully happy doing what we love in Gods presence but this time perfectly happy? For example, playing tennis? If yes, then why not play tennis in this life also?

Why did Plato have children if he realized that only the soul can experience the true essence of knowledge and thav souls themselves are are not unique?

>>20110272
if you cant describe your troubles in 3 words or less you do not struggle you are just a pretentious faggot.

example fake struggle:
>> Yeah, being depressed is well, thinks of word to say because I can’t use depressing not fun, like you said, it’s not just being sad like others think, it’s that feeling of despair you can’t loose, the time when you stare and do nothing for an hour

real struggles :
>>no bitches
>>36 y.o virgin
>>My parents died

just man up pussy PS: didnt read

How big of a sin is a dick pic.
Ive sent a lot of them, its been bugging me. I really want to stop

>>19979807
I had three weird dreams tonight. One was of a giant plant growing out of the middle of the ocean (like the giant beanstalk) into the heavens that apparently reached god at the end, but the further it went up the thinner it got. Someone tried climbing it and when getting near the end, where the plant was at it's weakest, he toppled it down with his weight, making the plant fall over into the ocean causing and world flood and killing everything. Second dream was some sort of attack on the planet by giant insects, very big orange centipedes with swamrs of cockroaches following them, i remember i was in my grand gradmother's old village house trying to run away, don't remember how it ended. And the third dream i have almost fully forgotten, i remember it was more pleasant than the others and it involved some girl i have never see before but that's all about it i can remember. Really wish i would stop dreaming, makes me feel like a barely get enough rest from sleeping and i feel fatigued for the rest of the day, not wanting to do anything.

>thinking about all the rapes during the fall of Berlin again

>realising that the chance if me finding a virgin to start a life with at the age of 25 is basically zero
Books for this feel?

WHER ARE YOU RESPOND VOID HEAR MY CALL READ MY SCREED TAKE IT IN ALL IN OH SO VERY MUCH IN JUST GIVE ME THIS RESPONSE THIS ONE THING I ASK JUST ONCE I BEG FOR IT I MUSTER ALL EFFORT FOR NEW MASTER TAKE ME IN TAKE ME ON JUST GIVE ME NO SCORN EFFECT MY AFFECT AND TAKE IT IN KIND; I NEED YOU TO TELL ME WHAT IS ON YOUR MIND. READ IT AND TELL ME THIS I ASK YOU. THEN I AM YOURS, A MEEK MEEP TIL IT BORES.

WHER ARE YOU RESPOND VOID HEAR MY CALL READ MY SCREED TAKE IT IN ALL IN OH SO VERY MUCH IN JUST GIVE ME THIS RESPONSE THIS ONE THING I ASK JUST ONCE I BEG FOR IT I MUSTER ALL EFFORT FOR NEW MASTER TAKE ME IN TAKE ME ON JUST GIVE ME NO SCORN EFFECT MY AFFECT AND TAKE IT IN KIND; I NEED YOU TO TELL ME WHAT IS ON YOUR MIND. READ IT AND TELL ME THIS I ASK YOU. THEN I AM YOURS, A MEEK MEEP TIL IT BORES.

Books with this feel

https://www.thecut.com/2014/12/what-its-like-to-be-a-58-year-old-virgin.html

Recommend me something that can help me stop the constant want of suicide,please.

>>10958599
>do interesting things
overrated