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>>13585795
I cheated on my ex over six times and never necessarily felt any emotion or guilt over it, mostly felt the need to hide the fact from her so I didn’t upset her.

She’s gone now, after I got into a drunken argument over her never wanting to have kids. She was only 20, but as a 23 year old I guess I expected too much. It was really nice with her, though. Almost made it a year dating, and was quite honestly the most satisfying year of my life. Now life’s gone back to a depressing grey.

Without a girlfriend life’s pretty empty again. I’ve never been good at friends, always had this tendency to lose interest in a person a short while after meeting them. Feel like there must be a word for someone like me; lonely but not alone, friendless but no trouble making friends, good looking, 10/10 athleticism, 130 iq (weschler test), upper class parents but a college dropout.

Life’s on easy mode for me, most of the time, but there’s never been any satisfaction. Grew up as the middle child between an older brother who’s in every way just s talented as me, and a younger sister who steals everyone’s heart. If anyone has book suggestions for getting over being overlooked and underpicked your whole life, maybe this could help.

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