/lit/ - Literature

>>14004213
I was browsing the shelves of my local library earlier this week (not where the classics and bestsellers are) and after some minutes of reading the first pages of what interested me I had this terrible realization that the end goal is not to be published, it never has been. it is for people to care about and read the results of your work. those shelves were full of pages from authors who had made it and 99,9% of all that was there would be forgotten in a year at max. so many variations and sides of the same coin, so many tales that had been told before, so many books and stories that essentially could never have been written and there would be no sifnificant change, it was devastating. I ended up getting a famous book instead of one of the new ones. I'm part of this problem.

>when you realize you live solely through vicarious consumption of media because you lack substantial relationshipsand you are simply a narcissistic solipsistic posturing pseud suffering from delusions of grandeur fruitlessly trying to shape your experience around your romantic conceptions of the world through your dilettantish pursuits and even in realizing this you still cling to the futility of your existence with the illusory hope that someday you can achieve some sort of lasting fulfillment
books for this feel?

>>13997569
>...and this you surely know, so i shall not explain it.
>i don't know it

>ywn live in early 19th century paris
why even bother

Music:
Polvo
Slint
Hella

What are some books for people careening towards suicide or worse: a totally wasted life.

Please.

>>12812920
>logos
You didn't bother to read the thread, ok
>>12812930
Haha, thanks, I've read this. Love it!

How do you manage to do philosophy without becoming overwhelmed with dread and despair? Philosophy combined with various fields of science have lefted me so antagonized with anxiety that i had to be hospitalised along with it came pessimistic, fatalistic, and extremely nihilistic outlook on life/reality/existence. How can I make it stop its suffocating? Can you recommend me to read something? I finished reading on the heights of despair by cioran and found it comforting, if that helps with recommendations.

What are some books that can help me deal with losing in general? Losing a game and then never touching it again, losing an argument with someone and avoiding them

I just fucking hate losing desu and I wanna kill myself because I lose so much