/lit/ - Literature

1.why does chatgpt write better than me?
2.how can i become better at writing, without reading books myself?specifically at vocabulary i guess. I honestly hate reading and since childhood my mind would almost immediately wander off and i would instead daydream about pleasant things.also my memory is quite bad and these two moments combined have resulted in poor vocabulary. i wish i could access to way more words in real time. the thing is, when i am writing some fiction, i end up looking up synonyms and definitions for every other word and 99% of the words that i receive are words that i already know actually, i just didn't remember to use them. as for new-to-me words, even when i look up their definition, i am sure i am not using them "correctly'. i am ESL but the situation with my first language is even worse, because i don't like to talk to people, so i haven't used it much