/lit/ - Literature

>>18623720
I can't for now, I "softlocked" myself into being an incel for at least 2-4 more years at least and by then I will be 24 - 26, I started working while I was still in school as a freelancer online, I gained success and dropped 2 months before graduating (I was going to study something art related anyway so I didn't see the point in staying in school when I was earning much more money than my teachers and was working in what I was going to eventually do). I fucked myself over even more by buying a piece of land where I will eventually build a house, but 2 years into my new life of working all day without ever going out I got severely depressed because I started questioning everything I was doing and I completely stopped working until I eventually decided that I don't care about money anymore and I want to dedicate my life towards complete technical mastery of art, because I realized that if I kept going down the road I was going I would eventually kill myself.
So I'm currently drawing, studying and watching art related courses for 7-10 hours a day, I will continue until I'm satisfied with my art abilities, and since I'm now a neet with no responsibilities + all the free time in the world I calculated it's going to take me 2-4 years to do that.
I know I'm extremely pathetic, in my lowest point I didn't shower for more than a month, but now I have a goal, I'm working out, I started watching series / movies again (I hadn't watched any in like 3+ years other than Game of Thrones) and I started reading which was something I had wanted to do since I was a teen, so hopefully I'm eventually able to climb out of this hellhole I created for myself.