/lit/ - Literature

4chan and twitter have been the only social media ive used in the past few years and I'm still left with a sense that i can't *be myself* . the reason I stopped using fb and ig is because i felt like i couldn't be honest or sincere on the platform. i left twitter in the last few months because it made me realize something more important. even though i could more safely and honestly express myself they were still largely aimless and desperate expressions. just like this dumb post. they just get swallowed up in the din and it's impossible to think because just as you make on of your posts you're bombarded with everything else all at once. we're all contributing to this cacophony and inhibiting each others thinking. as Deresiewicz said you're "marinating yourself in the conventional wisdom" by participating in these social media.

you can just sit there scrolling and reading other people's posts, but the way you read them is so transient that, it's almost as if they're your own thoughts. marinating is a good metaphor for it and i believe it has a serious effect on your psyche whether you acknowledge it or not. i'd say it even approaches schizophrenia.

i woke up having a panic attack one night, and i tried to relax by reading 4chan, but everywhere i looked it was nothing but venom and it just affected me so strongly. being in such a sensitive state at the time, i could feel my heart reacting to these thoughts of yours and mine -- ironic or not. it made me realize that 1) it is of the utmost importance to spend time alone, not reading or listening or doing anything really. so ive been walking more and more lately. 2) you have to be careful what you say on here because you are having an effect on other people, however small.