/lit/ - Literature

I'm currently having problems with the God question and I think this chart illustrates it well. From an intellectual perspective I comprehend the idea that "we are all gods." That God is within us as well as outside us. And that everything is connected. I can even feel this so it's not merely a dry intellectual abstraction.

I'm also bold enough also take it to some logical conclusions. For example, when I pray, I'm actually praying to myself, because God is within me, and I am "God" so to speak. (or at least, I am a part of God).

My biggest problem is not the acknowledgement of Atman/Brahma or even feeling it. Instead, I take the inquisitive nature a step further and say to myself. "It's one thing to say I am God, but another thing entirely to act Godly." And that's where the whole system falls apart. Because, in my mind if I acknowledge something as profound as being God yet continue to stew in my old vices without advancing in virtue, it means nothing. Or in the very least there is a big disconnect between my thoughts and actions. Borderline LARP.

I'm not talking about transforming into a saint either. I just mean basic things like "be more patient, read more, exercise more, fast more, take care of chores better, be less anxious and more courageous, etc." It seems like I can't get anything done this way.

Meanwhile, when I perceive the personal theistic God, it gives more direction. Someone to worship, and thus grow in piety. Someone who offers guidance, protection, and direction. An Ideal I can aspire too.

Thoughts on this dilemma?