/lit/ - Literature

>>13886320
>mu chose fucking dadrock shit over Neutral Milk Hotels
neomu has zero personality lmao

>>13055131

My 1,200pg magnum opus just got denied, not because it was terrible, but because I waited too long.

My friend and I set out to write our books before we graduated, we started in sophomore year and got underway. Him majoring in English me majoring in mathematics; we both finished our senior year and were planning to publish it but I wanted to add/remove some stuff and make some edits, the english professor in our school really both of our drafts and declared he will go on a crusade to publish both. Well I declined and told him I'd like to change somethings whilst my friend went in and tried to get published. Well we graduated and my buddy got his book published around 750pgs I recently dusted off my draft and called my old mate to ask him if he call our professor and get my thing published, well, it turns out our professor had died of a stroke that same week. I tried publishing normally to over 20 publishers to no avail simple because none of them took me seriously, I was a mathematics major trying to publish some PoMo bullshit, and on top of that im involved in a bunch of the mathematics community in my area so they thought I just made some trash.

>books for this feel?

I read 18hrs a day and im getting real sick of doing so. I live in a shitty low eco family so reading is a especially strange habit as if going out and getting fucked up is more acceptable. All my friends dont trust me for being a total cunt and I do text them but its gotten to a point where they just use me as a dump for emotions they cant talk about to their "real" friends(I live in another city so they just complain to me essentially a living diary i am) I cant even talk about my problems with them as I get no response and they dont care. Everyone at my Uni assumes im freak mute as I take every effort to abstain from conversation and as I dont want to risk fucking up more relationships I'm haunted by the fun times of my original group of friends enough. I just read in my dorm far far from friends and family; my diet is consistent of sausage,spaghetti,toast and coffee. A month a discovered that in a group chat with my old "friends" thats hardly used at all unless I start a dialogue which has yet to happen in months and the reason for this, told to me by a friend, was that the group chat was made just for me, as they have one for me, and one that they really use for plans and a bunch of people that they added to the entourage. I know im obsessing over these people but they are the only people that ive been friends with since before highschool and to know im nothing more than nuisance to them truly confirms my lonliness. I've been really down as this realization dawns on me more and more and its driving me mad I've experimented with SH by scaring my thighs but it truly makes me feel no less morose or satisfied. This week has gone by eseptially slow and im beginning to see visuals( if youve done acid youll know what im talking about) on my dorm wall similar to waves and such. Im not sure what to do anons im beginning to talk to my self as if im showing some old mates all the fascinating things ive read and just laughing to myself. Everyone thinks im fine because the people at my uni think im just a laidback loner. I dont do drugs I dont drink but im getting more and more scared im falling into delirium and im not sure ehat to do.

books for this feel? I like epic poetry.(Just kidding give me advice, book recs woudent hurt either tho)

>tfw joined a classical languages group in my campus
>I’m the only freshman and there’s only 10 people

obese
>128lbs from an episode of my 600lb life being made about me
>always buy a TON of groceries, cakes, chocolate, chips, and other things like that
>couple of weeks ago was loading up on chocolates and chips in particular
>i have 'themed' shopping days, so one day i will only buy chocolate, chips and cakes, the next i will buy potatoes and vegetables etc
>not autistic but it is just too tiring to walk across multiple aisles so i stick to the ones close together
>often does mean I eat nothing but chips and cake for a few days but is made up for when i eat just potatoes, veggies, fruits and nuts for a few days (not fat because i am eating unhealthy just too much)
>carrying 5 plastic bags filled with chocolates, chips and other things, about 3 days worth in total (bare in mind this was all my calories for 3 days)
>one of the bags is so fucking heavy (it is the bag for chocolate bars, the other bags were for: plain chips, flavoured chips, chocolate cookies and chocolate cakes) that it ruptures
>packets of chocolate bars spill over the street
>panic, as I am not very good at bending over
>come up with a clever plan
>the bags of chocolate bars are rectangular
>think if I drop the bag of chocolate cakes onto the edge of each packet of chocolate bars, it will 'flip' up into the air, and I can catch it
>stand over a bag of bounty bars
>drop the chocolate cake bag on them
>just lands on the edge and crushes, nothing flips up
>cake bag falls and spills out all over the street
>starting to really panic in case someone sees
>decide to abandon the cakes and chocolate (over 40 euro worth) and go home
>still see some of the food on the streets now

why does this never happen in books?