/lit/ - Literature

I've been reading a lot. I'm getting through at least 4 books a week while working full time. I feel like this is some strange form of suicide. I have no ambition, no hope. I don't even have despair. I just subsist and read. Boxed away like some mummy. Maybe I should want to go beyond all this, but what would be the point. The future is a strange, sick horizon that seems absurd to chase. Maybe I should get a girlfriend, but that too seems like a setup for a bizarre absurdist drama: the Recluse in Love. I think I'll die. It will be slow. None of the sense of theater that self-immolation has, none of the seriousness of a gunshot, not even the sustained will of an overdose. This will be just a prolonged wasting away. Chronic time poisoning. There is a cold beauty to it

>>18273703
I cant think of any thinkers who have purified themselves from enlightenment thinking. It might be impossible. This is the absurdity of traditionalists. You cannot return to an organic community that doesn't exist. You cannot pass on a tradition that has been cut off. You can never kill off all of what has created you. It would be easier to destroy the entire global neoliberal power structure than it would be to try to artificially create a pre-modern way of life (and this would be almost impossible). Traditionalists are doomed because their 'tradition' is an artifice. It isn't real. This makes me very, very sad.

>>17109309
lovely thought