/lit/ - Literature

>>15606076
I'm have a major disassosciative deconstruction of who I am, and trying to figure out what is the real me.

I'm past giving a shit about these tribal conflicts in politics, social games and being prey to global manipulation through technology to get me to dumb myself down and not recognize who I am as an individual, collectivist society (at least in the online space) is trying to break down our humanity to a simple one word answer.

But humans are complicated, infinitely so, and its arrogant to even think I know how anyone else works, much less myself. It's so hard to explain, but delving deeply into the ideas of Freud, Jung, Nietzsche, Kant, Descartes etc. and the perennial nature of ancient civilizations and religions have helped me make sense of what I should be doing, which is figuring out the depths of my own psyche, even if it means dissolving everything about who I am that doesn't matter and knowing that may give an understanding as to why humans are attracted to specific behaviours, and where thats evolving and how to tell what the global conciousness is heading toward by searching within your own conciousness.

It's a journey within that defies words to even adequately explain it, it comes across as a raving lunatic, but thats because the inarticulated self that I am KNOWS these things, but the articulated self doesn't have enough structural information in order to explain these things to the outside world.

So yeah, EVERYTHING is troubling me, but I kinda enjoy it.