/lit/ - Literature

When I was 14 I thought I could do anything. I was passionate, I lifted weights, I had an incredibly disciplined albeit antisocial routine, I had a plan for my life in its totality. I'm 18 now. I'm just as antisocial and misanthropic. I feel like the ship of my ambitions has sailed. Though I achieved nothing that others during that time that others would consider insignificant, the knowledge that I could have achieved so much more if I had used my time more wisely and without procrastination dawned. However will I cope with this feeling. I'm not old, but I feel that I have experienced all that life has to offer. My youth is slipping away, but I don't feel the energy of my earlier youth to catch it. I have never felt more powerless in my life. I have felt this way for a year and a half and it seems like nothing will get any better.