/lit/ - Literature

Not worth it anon. Pick your head up. You'll get through it.

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Job feels that way, but eventually is redeemed. It is important to understand that when reading scripture that is not pleasant.
I suspect many of your burdens are not theological and rather stem from temporal issues. If you are driven to such straits as these, I would imagine that this situation goes beyond just guilt and sin and into deeply personal experiences for you, many of which are not your fault. I was born in a fairly strict household growing up and as a result, tend to feel guilt very strongly as well. As the years have gone by, I've realized that I cannot change my past actions, and much of these guilty feelings that arise are not my fault entirely.

Also, let it be known that the faith is for our benefit. If we feel as if it is crippling us, it is totally acceptable to take a step back and a little while to analyze ourselves a bit. I'm not saying become an apostate, but perhaps you are using Catholicism as an unhealthy crutch and you need to resolve some problem in your personal life first, before progressing spiritually. I really cannot stress this enough. It is far better to take a break and partake in some escapism than it is to be constantly pressured when you are already facing challenges. Once again, that could just be projecting, but I see a lot of people on this board struggling for this reason. Finally, don't be so tough on yourself since you have admitted your guilt. You cannot change the past and it is pointless to worry about it. If we are forgiven, we are forgiven, and to think otherwise is ignorance. I would give more opinions/thoughts, but I don't know your situation and don't want to be inconsiderate. Ultimately, whatever you have done can't be anything more than what past saints have been forgiven of.