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>chronic knee pain
>Carpal tunnel
Can't exercise like I used to
>Bad skin
>Uneven balding
>Bad eyes
>voice impediment
Ugly as hell
>College dropout
>Parents have resented me since I was ten
>Parents shun me for not believing their religion anymore, but it's stay with them or live on the streets
>Major depression since middle school
>KHV
>Butt of all my friends jokes
>Sleeping on anything but my back is incredibly painful
>Alcohol and pornography addiction
>Parents are going on a triumphant empty nest tour of Europe even though they can't even provide the absolute bare minimum level of care for their two children (my baby sister is an embarrassing thot and whore now)
>Turned down from military for knee injuries and history of depression

Seriously, there is no reason why I shouldn't kill myself. I'm only 23 right now and no aspect of my life can improve in the near or long term. Am I going to keep doing this in ten years, twenty years, forty years? I've already done the SSRIs and the CBT, and even if those worked, one of my numerous other problems would immediately erase all progress I made. Books on this? And suicide method recommendations?

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