/lit/ - Literature

>>19423699
I sleep on the day, stay awake all night. It's been like this for a couple of weeks, if I sleep at all. While being awake, I feel a horrible sensation of hollowness, and headache, no hunger whatsoever, if I eat, it's just because I know I must do it.
I've stopped going to uni. It's exam season now, I've done none of them. I asked to freeze this semester, but if that solicitation is rejected, I don't know what I will do. I feel as if I had no vocation for anything.
It's already 6 am, I can see the sun coming out. I haven't showered in I think 4 days. All I've eaten during this week has been canned tuna and milk. I've been drinking more coffee than usual these last 2 months. I don't know how many cups I have a day, maybe 7, maybe 8. The other day I felt like dying: my heart started beating too fast after too much caffeine, and I could breath without feeling pain in my chest. I probably drank like 14 cups that day, no idea.
I do not talk much to my roomates. One of them was a highschool friend, now I can't stand him. I try to avoid them at all cost.
All I do while being awake is daydream, read, listen to music or surf the internet, without much interest in anything. Sometimes I talk with some online friends, and that's pretty much all I enjoy doing lately.
I've had some ideas to write about these last few weeks.
These are supposed to be the best years of my life, and I feel like a corpse.

>>19331186
Thinking about dropping out of college. I hate Law, I have no interest in studying it any further. The only thing that interests me are Literature and Music. Wish I could dedicate all of my time to those.
I ain't even doing well in college, I haven't learned anything so far.

>>17967228
I cannot stand the idea of getting old. I cannot stand the idea of dying without leaving some kind of trace in history.
"Human life is limited, but I want to live forever"

I have the characters, the plot, the action, all in my mind, but I'm afraid of starting.

>>14518679
I never told her, but she probably knew.
About texting her, I was planning to do that when I write something good and/or get published, but I don't think that will happen until at least 10 years more.

>>13834924
I know that feel too, but instead of alcohol it's porn addiction

>writing an essay
>have all the ideas on my head
>don't know how to write them
>procrastinate