/lit/ - Literature

>>22994634
I met someone once who said he used to be all about Ted, and then going full Nick Land. How does that happen? I wish I could have asked him, but it didn't occur to me at the time. I wonder if he was more nuanced from the get go because he studied technology deeply despite seeming to hate it, then became opposed to anyone who disrupted technological development.

>>18024116
Time to take your meds anon.

Not once in my entire life has a girl expressed even the faintest of interest in me. No shy smiles, no furtive glances, flirtations or teases. I have never been asked to dance. In fact I'm quite convinced I have been invisible to women since I went through puberty. Over the years of browsing 4chan I've read countless greentext stories of anons bemoaning their obliviousness in regards to girls who had been interested in them, or regretting rejecting girls who had approached them. I've always wondered why exactly these anons were hung up on these incidents. To me it seems that if it happened once, it could happen again. If one girl had found you good enough, there surely would be others. The odds you met the only girl on the entire planet who finds you good enough are slim to none.
I do not usually dwell on these things. My solitude is a fact of life I've long accepted and I expect no change, ever. There are other things to occupy a man's time. But on certain nights when the stars are hidden behind the blanker of clouds I feel these very deep emotions. I have an expansive caldera of sadness within me that I cannot reconcile or diminish. It grows as the years pass despite my attempts to quell it and on these deep nights I sit alone in the dark and tears well to my eyes over something I cannot help. It is an irreparable desolation burned across my malformed soul. I am defeated

>Reach Enlightenment for around six months
>Don't care about how ugly I am, focus purely on reading, writing, enjoying myself
>Enlightenment wears off
>Back to be being depressed loser who spends all day thinking about how useless he is

Why?