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I have been Atheist from an early age, mostly as a consequence of growing up in an abusive household. Even as an adult, I find it hard not to hate God for all the suffering and loss I have endured due to the above mentioned abuse as well as difficulties with alcohol and gambling, to say nothing of the suffering I have seen other people fall prey to. Deep down, I want to leave Atheism and accept Jesus in my life, but it's so hard to forgive God for the unfair nature of the world.

Are there any books that could help me resolve these challenges?