/lit/ - Literature

Kaufman listen to me. Why here? Why did you and your Jewish marketing goons chose to shill it here? Of all places, you could have been big in reddit alone but why fucking here? For the last seven months I've seen you and your baby goons try to blatanlty stir some hype here . It's unreal. Do you have no soul? Your tactics are so devoid of sincerity, it's so unpure that it gave me a bomboclaat rasclaat ting it off aneurysm

I'm planning on writing a story in which the protagonist, maybe in a stream of consciousness style, will oscilate between his past (in which he believed in a project and gradually burned out without ever achieving anything) and his present (in which he tries to bring back the past, distorted by his present perception as a period of efervescence and juvenile enthusiasm).
Just as a detail of his nostalgia, I might introduce some mentions of ephebophilia (not younger that 18 tho) in his present life, but I still don't know if it should be heterosexual or homosexual. He would fuck the teenager only as a way of trying to bring back what he felt about sex back when he was young. I guess that if he fucked a girl, he'd do in order to contemplate her juvenile enthusiasm, like she wants him to know he's already an adult and shit. If he fucked a young guy, I guess he would be searching for the feels he felt during his youth, when he had an equally young male lover. I'm planning to make the adult man an average joe, so he would be the only one that knows about his homosexuality and the relationship. He's married now and shit.
So it would be trying to simulate the past (gay shit) or trying to contemplate the past (straight shit). What do? What would make the story look less like a story about fucking teens and more like a story about wanting to bring back the past?

>tfw some /heftylol/ redditor is melting down in this thread

>In 2001, as part of Infinite Jest's 5 year anniversary celebration, David Foster Wallace arranged a weekend cruise for his colleagues on the Wallace family yacht.[1] On Saturday evening, approximately 4 hours after Wallace set sail, a small child lost her balance and fell overboard. According to Jonathan Franzen, the child was quickly dragged under the waves and had to struggle to stay above surface.[2] As the others on board rushed to help, Wallace held out an arm in front of them, hindering their attempts to save the child. A colleague of Wallace who wishes to remain anonymous has told us that Wallace then proclaimed "The waves have claimed her, we must let her fight for her own life". Mr. Wallace then proceeded to watch the girl struggle until her body disappeared beneath the waves, lifeless. He was later spotted outside the deceased's home, making drowning gestures and thanking the family for their child's sacrifice to the great ocean.[4]