/lit/ - Literature

>>23474779
funny, I was just thinking something similiar to that. But I did not have neither good life nor anyone I trust. My life has been empty and still is. But, my biggest accomplishment was that I can safely say that I can die with no regrets and bitterless despite it all. I no longer have depression (or at least no longer paralyzed by it) and while I do not wish to die anymore I do not fear death anymore.
Pleothra of questions that I wish to know the anwser for, one which is a word or words to describe this 'paradoxial hope' I have.

I want to go star gazing somewhere dark but I live in highly densed area (too much light polution) and I don't have a car nor a licence. I do not know anyone willing to help either and before I can even begin getting licence and car I still have to resolve pleothra of other matters in my life.
Oh well, at least I have a realistic and seizable goal to unfuck my life to some degree.