/lit/ - Literature

This is probably going to be a long one, forgive me.

I got into esotercism, the occult and all sorts of alternative spiritualities in my late teens. Dabbled with some low level Golden Dawn rituals, meditation practices and just general craziness. Experienced Chapel Perilous. Smoked weed. All that.

Life got so bad because of this reckless experimentation that I felt a real need for God in my life. I felt broken in a way that only The Almighty would be able to heal. Became Orthodox. Met a lot of good people. Made some experiences. Haven't healed however in that way that I was hoping for.

I am at Uni now and trying my best to get my life together. It has become so painful to me to see other young people living their life and being free to live out their own while I'm having to work through the supernatural fallout of my late teens. "Natural" alienation was bad enough. Now this demonic stuff on top has become borderline unbearable for me. I don't know what to do and I feel that the depths of my heart will forever remain buried with the dead.

>>7104504
Caravaggio is truly second to none.