/lit/ - Literature

I have no reason to be here but this place is so nostalgic I find myself returning from time to time just to reminisce a bit.

I can't figure out what God expects of me. Why are we left to ourselves? For how long will this go on?

Had a scholarship that paid for most of the first two years of community college, but that ran out last Spring and I have no desire to keep going for a computer science degree. I worked construction, didn't apply for another term, and then got a factory job for the winter since I hate working in the rain, but this factory job actually manages to be more soul crushing than construction. My mother and sister both said I'd be good at drafting, and since I have no clue what to do, I'm gonna take their advice. Read and write a little bit, but waiting to have a solid schedule before I start planning out times for myself. My greatest interests are poetry (literature in general to a slightly lesser extent) and history, but I don't want to make a career out of writing or be a history teacher. I'd like to find something that pays fairly well, enough to get a house and raise a family with, but that also gives me free time to study/practice the things I like. Doesn't help that I have very little discipline and procrastinate too much.

Literature about
painting or where a character is a painter and talks about the creative process?

I’ve found a pattern in some
of my favorite movies and it’s that they are about painters who engage a lot in the philosophy of art or in certain movements, and I was wondering what are some novels about something like that.

>>10776446
Doktor Faustus by Thomas Mann, they mention other pictures by Durero too
>>10777581
It reminds me of Ivan’s hallucinations on TBK
>>10778394
Queen Margot
>>10778577
giv
>>10776633
White Nights

Would you prefer your death to be unexpected and sudden or not? Personally, I would like to know I was going to die. It intrigues me, having death by you side. It would be the ultimate chance for true introspective reflexion, weighing what is really worth and what isn't. Plus that moment of supposedly absolute peace just before the curtains fall. It would be a shame not having the possibility to experience all of this.