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i recently entered into a relationship. my gf knows i have zero experience and shes been my first for a lot of things. we've rushed the getting into the relationship part but im taking it super slow physically cause i dont know what im doing. we've only made out once and i felt like a little kid. like a woman was kissing a little boy. im very honest to her about my feelings. last night we went to the movies and i could not get comfortable. we had this love seat thing and we cuddled all night but i was so uncomfortable. i wasnt actually watching the movie. just her and my mind was going about a million miles an hour. im really cocky, like really really cocky. but being around her has made me realize that that cockiness is just a product of my insecurity. im not at all cocky around her. she makes me feel like a little kid, ive never felt more venerable to a person before. ive tried so hard to separate myself from who i was as a kid. this is a strange return. idk if i like him although who i am now makes me disgusted. feeling her in my arms lastnight was good, i hope she wasnt uncomfortable.

Psychopompos