/lit/ - Literature

>23 years old
>neet but graduated with a useless stem degree
>going to fulfil my weeb dreams this april by relocating to japan for a year -- mostly using this time as a buffer to figure out what i want to do and also to get away from the boring shit hole where i currently reside with my step father who i occasionally feel is plotting to kill me and my narcisstic mum who has more of a social life than me despite having her youth and beauty long gone (also pretty sure she avoids staying at home for extended periods of time to avoid the failure that is her only child)
>never been in love but continually find & use lonely desperate men online as emotional tampons
>now too afraid of love because of continual manipulation of said men
>extremely lonely
>but also deeply despise humanity
>spend the majority of my time living life through cute instagram girls, reading meme books recommended by lit, updating my tumblr that no one cares about, and doing squats just so i can camwhore my ass better on soc
>entirely and unapologetically self absorbed
>strive for perfection just so i can look down on all the uglies and dummies around me