/lit/ - Literature

any good literature on hair lines?

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>>14546252
I feel very similarly . I really value knowledge and try to learn a lot of things about a lot different subjects . But my case is a lot more pathetic . I want to improve but i just can't , i always hit a sort of ceiling i just can't seem to surpass. I'm too dumb but just insightful enough to be ambitious and see how dumb i am.

I unironically feel like a midwit. Everytime i try to specialize in a particular domain even when taking a college course i'm just subpar. So i end up with surface level knowledge on a huge amount of things. Enough to maintain the illusion that i'm a really smart guy and impress people at parties and family gatherings.

My biggest fear is that one day while i display my basic understanding of psychology/political science/philosophy/ at a party someone who actually knows their shit will show up and try to join the conversation and realize that i don't know shit and taking an econ 101 class and watching a few youtube lectures doesn't make me an expert and exposes me for the fraud i am.

I'm too dumb for public universities.
And the weird thing is that i alternate between being the smartest guy in the room in a lot of social situations but one of the dumbest among my peers. I feel like i could never handle dating a smarter person than me. i've never been insecure about this before,and i even thought i'd enjoy it,but i don't think i could keep up the illusion for more than a few months before she'd realize how ignorant i truly am and end up feeling tricked ,such a relationship would be bound to fail.

It's quite funny how everyone in my family mistakes me for a genius when i wouldn't last a minute in any academic circles,and make a fool of myself .

In short i love a lot of things,know a bunch of stuff none of wich will ever be useful to me, and i'm not intelligent enough to pursue an academic
career and/or bring something new to the table.

I know how silly and juvenile and shallow my worries are but i needed to vent, and i apologise for how terribly written and formatted this is but hey it's really late (or early i should say) where i live and it's my first time ever writing in english. But with all the time spent browsing here this is probably no excuse, although i never post.