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>Catholicism has made me more sad than I was before I got semi-serious with my faith. No doubt it has made me a better and more principled person, but it has also changed my psychology.
You nailed it Anon
I know "it's not supposed to be easy" and all that, but there are times when all I feel is disgust with myself, then fall into despair, then feel even more disgusted because despair is a sin.
The positive spiritual moments I feel are so rare compared to months of dread and hopelessness. It's not like larpers on the internet say when they try to encourage you. It's fucking miserable most of the time.
Then you read things like Dark Night of the Soul and realize that no, it's pretty much supposed to be like that.