/lit/ - Literature

I'm struggling with this disease of the mind.
I have been infatuated with a female who doesn't even know I exist and if she does probably only has the deepest of contemptable indifference towards me.
She looks so pure.
She is probably my image of the perfect female I didn't even know existed in this form.
It is crushing, but also very exciting to act out my beta incel creep ways and stare at her and follow her around.
I feel like such an insignificant worm and I know I would never be able to say anything to her.
Also it would also destroy the perfect image I have crafted in my mind.

It's like crack, that's how addictive it is to look at her, although I know it won't do me any good and is only bringing me closer to insanity. I can't even describe what's happening.
I'm always getting some kind of adrenaline rush and my heart is throbbing faster.
Never had that sensation before.

Looking for relatable novels with this theme. Anything that deals with the unobtainable.