/lit/ - Literature

what books explore solitude?

>tfw no Cioran bf

>>12144787
>>12145551

Yeah, Notes From the Underground had me pretty much all figured out

>>11237529
You remember the feeling it gave you.

said something stupid to someone I love and desperately need to go back in time to kill myself before it happens
books for this feel?

>>10632138
>tfw oxygen slowly degenerates your cells
>tfw the air you depend on for life from second to second is also what will eventually kill you from old age

>You'll never live in an age where you don't have to study inferior stemshit to be taken seriously by the idiots surrounding you

A young autist just trying to make a meager living leaves his family behind in pursuit of living alone and planning his suicide by 40 because things never get better.

During this time he continues to defecate on canvas and hoard these fecal creations in a tiny studio apartment somewhere in buttfuck Colorado. Eventually he meets a qt girl at the local art supply store who keeps trying to force her way into his life because she wanted to see if he had good material to sell and make a buck off of. The hope was that she could manage the autism and his work to make a better living.

Upon learning that he uses paint enema to make """art""" just like ivy league students do, she loses sight of her original goal and begins to secretly show his paintings to local gallery managers.

After attaining local renown and noticing some of his shit was missing because he had space to walk in his room, he flips and tries to light a bonfire with all his work, dousing it in gasoline and smoking dank memes. The girl finds him by the paintings flame in hand and stops him. During their argument the gasoline begins to change the works of poopoopeepee and make them look even shittier but I guess she likes that so he gives them to her. He confronts her about the patronizing behavior towards him, and the lies, but she tries to tell him she is sorry, etc. He doesn't buy it and tries to burn everything. She burns herself putting out the fire. They continue to talk (scream) and he decides to test her. Cuts his wrist down the line and begins to bleed. Lights the paintings on fire again. She must choose, cash out, or save the autistic diaper baby who won't paint anymore.

hitting the shelves soon (never).

>>9257549
>tfw reading the rape scene as a kid

>>9180937
iktf

>>9160833
I can't pretend to know the whole situation, but I'd still feel uneasy if I were you. This is a huge red flag regardless of what she says now - if she really spent the last three years planning on breaking up with you while misleading you into thinking you had something permanent going, you can hardly start blindly trusting her again. It's ultimately up to you if you want to stay with her or not, use your best judgment. Just be sure to weigh the risks of her dropping you halfway through first semester. Ask yourself how much she actually cares about you.
One more thing, since you seem to be a very future-oriented guy: have you thought about what it would be like to be married to this girl? Have you thought about what you guys would look like ten years from now, or twenty? And has she? Have you considered what it would be like to be with her for the rest of your life, like your parents? Looking ahead to the future often helps to put these kinds of relationships in perspective.

Maybe you're trying to make every word and sentence perfect my dude. Don't delete shit immediately after typing it, just keep moving forward with anything you got until you have nothing left. Then let it sit for a while, go out or something and come back after a couple of hours or days, you'll see the mistakes and the structure of the story more clearly. Or maybe you won't.

>>8974418

>>8495946

No, I'm scared of living

>>7523189
>the pain of strangers doesn't bring you any pleasure

>the pleasure of strangers brings you pain

>>7505211
>tfw Kafka tossed off funny quips constructed out of a dark, impenetrable cosmology in idle conversation
>you still think poop jokes are funny

>>7486233
>you're reading that delillo
>she's fucking some fellow