/lit/ - Literature

>>9828291
I have an everpresent and evergrowing fear that I have become and am continuing to become a burden on both my family and my society.
My only desire is to find something that I can honestly feel is worth dying for, but I know that I am to much of a narcissist to ever honestly find that something.
Because of this I find that my only available action is to find a preexisting cause and play pretend at it in hopes martyring myself.
I have chosen to play at unwavering patriotism paired with a hidden Ethnic-Nationalism, because it seems the most heroic.
I hope that I will be accepted by the United States Navy so that I do not have to join the French Foreign Legion because, let me face it, I wouldn't want to die French.