/lit/ - Literature

>>12562282
me too lol this shit sucks... can't do anything anymore, can't laugh at pics on the net, can't engage in any form of societal conventions, can't express myself thru irony or anything other than a most naive sincerity. Society just looking like one vast facade rn, one big unnatural disaster where the young are shacked with the lies of the old. The world of adults is deeply dysfunctional, but people accept these dysfunctions as if it's normal. I feel that other people, by accepting the conventions of this humanly (or inhumanly) dysfunctional society, have become conditioned by it, into a state of lameness, whereby everyone becomes pasty, stressed, and somehow combat-unready - derelict in their biological imperative. Everyone suffers some form of arrested development - sexual, interpersonal, psychological - and all because society prevented the acquisition of some valuable developmental resource - sex, sociality, general mental/physical well-being - which they rarely even find out they've missed because they're too busy believing all the other lies.
Can't even ridicule you rn - can't engage in any 4chan type dialectic >>12562737 4chan is dead to me, online is dead to me, society is dead to me... this isn't some nihilistic statement either, I didn't do this shit on purpose it just happened this way... I don't even believe what I'm saying. In fact I'm a Catholic. I believe in god, I believe life has value etc etc. But at the same time everything's dead to me, and society is just one big infernal meat grinder where peoples desires and needs are shifted away from them and spat upon in the most vile redoubling of a social standard or rule. There are teens who live with abusive parents, who have to escape them for a while in order to fuck. There are teens who live with abusive parents, who never escape, and who never fuck. There are boys who got their dicks cut off prior to puberty, but their balls left on, so that they would get horny but not be able to find release. There are girls who get their vaginas sewn shut and their clitoris cut off, so that they experience similar things. I think of all of this and it just fuckin weighs on me like some bad fuckin dream. So tired of thinking about it, fuck this...