/lit/ - Literature

How do you come to terms with being a schizoid? It's ruined a lot of things for me, my strong natural urge in any group is to isolate myself and view everyone else as the enemy when literally all my peers are bonding and making connections. It's like I can't view other people as anything other than something to compete with, every interaction or trip into public is a test to see how I measure up and if my self-esteem isn't particularly high I just self-isolate altogether, which just exacerbates the problem. I have no inclination to make friends at all (although I do have the need to share which can come out in strange ways), I just don't want to always create such hostile situations for myself.