/lit/ - Literature

We can't be sure that actual thinking or willing is taking place because from the lowest level of our perspective, we are simply experiencing/aware of phenomena, similar to a bucket simply holding water without that water being the bucket or really affecting it. What we take to be ourselves thinking could just be the experience of what it's like to think and act willingly, which we are passively aware of and experience without truly doing it. SO here's the thing: experiences are *intelligible*. We aren't experiencing random blobs of unidentifiable phenomena, what we experience has a structure and is understandable. And here's the other thing: even if we can't be sure that we are actually performing the act of intellection (I need a better word for this) or that something being intelligible means we are actually engaging in intellection when we understand it, the very fact that the phenomena *are* intelligible means that true thought is taking place, as the phenomena being intelligible is contingent on there being a mind capable of performing intellection *to make them* intelligible, that is, it is only due to the fact that we do indeed think and will rather than passively experience that the experiences are intelligible at all and without this fact there might have been the illusion of thought without true intellection but it would have been impossible to distinguish this illusion from the unintelligible phenomena it would have taken place in.
Am I on the right track here? I know there are problems with my argument but since I ran into the problem of passive/container-like awareness of phenomena last June or so I haven't been able to overcome it in any way except through this. If it doesn't work I'm back to not being able to prove that anyone is actually thinking at all.

>it's another "anon wallows in crippling self-doubt and low self-confidence rather than trying something with the potential of failure" episode
>it's another "anon spends days mentally beating himself up over something trivially minor that nobody else even noticed" episode
>it's another "anon brushes shoulders with a girl on public transport or in a hallway and instantly gets rock hard and starts fantasizing about dating her" episode
>it's another "anon spends an evening curled up under the covers wondering why the world hasn't struck him dead yet for being such a burden on everybody he knows" episode
>it's another "anon contemplates suicide while filled with disgust and self-loathing after the latest entry in a long series of increasingly depraved masturbation sessions involving ever-more-unhinged forms of pornography" episode
>it's another "anon stubs his toe" episode
>it's another "anon wishes to encounter the divine, the ineffable beyond reality, and the sublime beauty above comprehension but gets filtered by 5 pages of Plato" episode
>it's another "anon wonders if the reason he struggles so hard to connect with other people is because he has some sort of personality disorder or if he's just retarded" episode

So you're telling me it's totally normal for girls to act friendly or forward with guys because they find them attractive? Is that really something that happens to people? I dunno man, I think you're pulling my leg.