/lit/ - Literature

>>14139269
I feel like my life's a bizarre point where I don't know what I'm doing, yet everyone keeps telling me that I should or that I actually do and just overreacting.
I don't know why I haven't felt happy in years, but maybe that's a lie because I've felt "happy" but I always feel like my default is a solid 5/10. I don't feel "right" but I also don't know how to "be happy." Fuck I moved across the country to try and find something diffrent, and I'm planning an international trip in a few months not to actually visit my friends, but just to have a goal I can set my mind to.

I have not told anyone about these feelings because when I did, I got dismissed and the person I told it to started talking about their seasonal depression and how it's worse.