/lit/ - Literature

>>12409416
This is pretty much my day except this advanced logic class is super demanding and difficult. I feel very much like every little delusion and barrier I've psychically built up between myself and the vicious world has eroded or completely dissolved the second this quarter started, I'm not sure if I can pass these 400 level phil classes and I'm losing interest in the major as well because of all this Kierkegaard I've been reading which makes me feel like analytic/academic philosophy is nothing but bothersome speculation. I've been writing all this music and getting some friends to play it with me but they seem reluctant and I hate feeling like I'm bothering them. But at this point I feel like these songs are the only way I can share myself with anyone, and sadly it feels like my slowly building suicide note. I've been gradually collapsing for years and I swear the bottom gave out two years ago and I've been drowning in myself while surrounded by what is otherwise a very lucky life, I have so much wordly things that others dont and I have positive influence on people, but I can help but feel trapped in my own tortured shell, every moment is the sense of an irrevocable loss of life while still living. I just hope this music ends up sounding okay.

Western Washington University
Philosophy
Concluding Unscientific Postscript

Going pretty well, turns out academic philosophy is nothing but theory of knowledge analytic bullshit thats boring the fuck out of me. I have to take advanced logic next quarter and I dont care a single bit about it, I just want to ready Kierkegaard and be comfy.