/lit/ - Literature

>>21273026
I'm not talking about death. After death there is no feeling. This feeling I'm talking about might not be too different from "amor fati" as described by Nietzsche. I just want to feel that everything I've lived through had meaning and that I have some ultimate destiny which is achievable, and upon achieving such destiny I can know that my life wasn't wasted and the rest of my days will feel like I've just come home after a long day of work with nothing to worry about.
I doubt I will ever experience such a thing. Even if fate is real, then it certainly doesn't favor me, and were I try to live such life of meaning without fate it may just end up with me looking like a pathetic madman. I don't have the balls to be quixotic.