/lit/ - Literature

Ok nerds, convince me why pursing a solitary pursuit is worthwhile. Why read when you'll never use what you learn, when no one will ever care what you have to say? No wants to hear about how story second hand, and no one is interested in hearing you regurgitate someone else's thoughts and philosophies. What's the point? Why bother when you can hang out with friends, or practice an art that people do want to see or hear? Convince me why anything else isn't better than reading

i feel like i'm losing a piece of myself every day
>losing ability to write
>stopped socializing with people
>spergish math skills falling apart (polistats major)
>no drive to read
>even when i sit down to read i immediately lose attention
>if i take an adderall i am able to focus but can't retain anything i read
>struggling to make myself work out
>uni grades slipping
>went from an A/B+ student to a C/C- student in the summer
>had a 9/10 christian QT ask me out but i was too inept to see her advances
>self aware enough to know that im responsible for my own downfall
>beat myself up over it
>know i sound like a whining faggot groveling in self pity
>hate myself even more
i don't know how to fix this bros... what should i do?