/lit/ - Literature

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no i don't think so, i think intelligence is always opposed to the frenetic and instead errs on the side of dispassion. i dont care about other people i just want to be left alone except for a few cool people and a bitch i can fuck. intelligent people only care about themselves and see others for what they are: external objects. intelligent ppl do not hyperbolize, intelligent ppl do not obsess, they don't reach out to others, don't try to formulate abstract theories because these are based on some hebephrenic aesthetic nonsense and these are in turn the result of mental illness.
and no i don't think I'm intelligent cause if i was or if i did then i wouldn't even post this, i wouldve just thought it to myself and benefited from the reflection directly. if i wanted to receive feedback and reformulate my thoughts so as to be more correct then i wouldve made a thread of my own. the only reason im posting this is because i have an unhealthy obsession with others and somewhere in my sideways mind i want to think someone will read this and in turn think something about me. i see myself in large part through others and this is my stupidity and this is the results of growing up with domestic abuse and trying to find copes for everything and trying to cope with copes with copes and coping with my copes that cope with more copes. my mind is nothing but a corkboard filled with thumb tacks that are my thoughts, my thoughts are arbitrary and only exist to validate or console other thoughts. nothing i say is true and nothing i do is truly actionable it's all just to develop some internal notion of meaning that only means anything to me because it makes me feel something. not that it makes me feel -good- but that it makes me feel anything, that is, in control. this is the result of my stupidity and the stupidity of my parents who raised me, and intelligent people are on the opposite end of the spectrum. intelligent people grew up rough and free whereas i grew up inhibited and sheltered and as a result have all sorts of extraneous thoughts and a victimized mentality and poor social skills