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I miss Windows XP

I tried to write down one of my sexual fantasies. Let me know what you think. Feel free to judge me.

The teacher tells me to go in front of class to take off my clothes and masturbate as usual. But this time she said that a special visitor was coming. My mother (not real one, of course) enters the room and looks at me with a belittleling smile. She sits down on a chair in front of class and my teacher puts me on her lap with my stomach pointing upwards. "Today, Anon is ready to lose his masculinity. You can capture it on your phone if you like," said the teacher. My mother puts her middle and index finger in my ass, which makes me feel really uncomfortable and I try to get away. But she has me in a tight grip and says "Sshhhh. Try to enjoy it, Anon." Then she puts the fingers of her other hands in my mouth repeatedly in and out until I start sucking on them. I feel raped and violated, but I submit. The teacher and the other students are amused by this scene. Some start to giggle as they notice my errection. "Go ahead," said my mom. I start to masturbate. "Didn't we teach you to masturbate like a girl, Anon?" I start to rub my flat hands against my penis instead of using my hand's grip.

>been obsessed with the open expanse of a green plain stretching for miles in every direction with a house in the middle of the strangely absent landscape, with tiny hills being the only noticeable features (mountains in the background)
I've been more and more drawn into this abstract idea of nothing, as well as the Roman virtue of living in peace farming, isolated from the greater world; to be so alone in a beautiful simple place where you could spend days, or even months, going in any direction you want, with your house as the only landmark really there - in the distance.
Yet, as much as I have been stuck with this emotion, I have rarely found much media that is really related to this emotion - but I think such media must exist.
For this reason I post this thread; what are some books which deal with the human concept of nothing?
Anything with a story centered around such an existence as described above, where the characters are in an odd dream like place, isolated from the rest of the world (by a vast nothingness, if possible), would be most amazing.

Or, my more realistic hope: a novel taking place in a setting similar to an abyss or nothingness, like the described situation above, where it is just grass fields in every direction no matter how far you travel.

I'm slightly embarrassed by the lack of context I can give, but I've really struggled to find this emotion much.
The best examples I can give to try to pin down this emotion I am after:
>The End of Eternity
>Angel Beats

I say these two because both touch on this feeling: EOE gives a story of a man within a literal nothingness outside of time, one alone from the real world of time. Its very lonely in that regard, and deals with what nothing is to an extent.
Angel Beats is no book, I fully realize, but it also touches on this with a setting of just a school with really nothing else existing.

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The Mechanical Bride - Marshall McLuhan

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