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>>15653706
Back in university I did summer school for a couple of the summers because it’s kind of rough to going back to living in the oppressive household of your parents.

Not a lot of people were around besides the Chinese students and black football players so I was mostly by myself but I found this lifestyle quite peaceful. There wasn’t a lot of work in the classes because there were a lot of retarded football players in them that needed to pass, so I genuinely enjoyed a lot of the ones I took, which were mostly natural science classes like weather and disease. The classes were I think extended to 2 hours long but after that I’d just have to go to the library and complete the little hw they gave in 15 minutes and spend the rest of the watching Reading (mostly Yukio Mishima then), meditating, watching YouTube, browsing 4chan, then playing vidya. I liked this better then when I was a full on beer in a while because it made me feel I did at least a little work which made me feel productive and good. As well it gave me an excuse to walk around the beautiful campus on those beautiful summer days (my class was about 15 minutes walk from my dorm).

I was also able to get the most fit I’ve ever been in my life as well going to the gym 4-5 days a week, so I felt physically amazing, and I hope this doesn’t sound narcissistic but I was a long haired ripped 9/10 twink, so it felt good to look in the mirror.

It’d always be comfy to walk to the gym in the evening, workout in the mostly empty gym, and then walk back to my dorm taking the long way around past a field where there were fireflies out flashing their mating signs during the days twilight.

And then I would order some pizza, get high, watch some anime or read some manga, and wake up around 10 the next day for another comfy summer school day.

The only thing I regret was there were a few really tall Amazonian girls from the women’s basketball team in my dorm, that I never had the balls to try and interact with and get snoo snoo’d by.

That summer was easily the most peaceful, and among the happiest times of my life.

I know this is gonna sound weird but I feel like a boy again. I got high the other night and saw from the perspective of people that haven’t been habitually conditioned to degeneracy of all kinds, that actually felt disgust at stuff we would laugh off. I was getting drunk watching Goon just now and I felt it, what I felt like before my brain was dephormed but the internet.

>>14401612
>>14401622
>>14401640
She disgusts me yet I unwillingly but completely and wholeheartedly love everything about her. I understand and look down on every flaw she has with great discernment and harshness, yet every one just makes me want to hold her the every bit tighter.

Any books for this feel? How do I marry her?

>>14401612
>>14401622
>>14401640
She disgusts me yet I unwillingly but completely and wholeheartedly love everything about her. I understand and look down on every flaw she has with great discernment and harshness, yet every one just makes me hold her the every bit tighter.

Any books for this feel? How do I marry her?