/lit/ - Literature

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I wrote a bunch of stuff to all of you, but my stupid phone changed the page and I lost it all. I'll just summarize it as this:
-I want to be beautiful.
-I presently look over at women and feel envious that they get to be so sophisticated, so elegant, so beautiful.
-And that I, as a man, must be like an animal in comparison, in my appearance, my outfits, my manner, and my inner essence too.
-I have lately been wishing to be a woman, a real one, just to experience what it would be like to be all of those qualities, the paragon of sophistication among the human sexes.
-I don't like crossdressing, I never have and never desire to, no offence here but I personally don't like when men and women play eachother's parts, it's a mockery to both sexes imo. I just want to experience being an actual woman, or nothing.
-I'm straight. No gay thoughts at all.
-No sexual stimulation here. I'm not turned on by these thoughts.
-I think I'm just very sad realizing lately, after expressing yesterday my desire to be a pretty boy, that I've temporarily gone haywire and desire to just be a girl itself, rather than be reminded of how awful it is to be this crude-looking young male that I am, and can never become any cuter from here and achieve "cute boy" status like I want to. Basically my own unsophistication has been highlighted to me since yesterday, and now I'm much more depressed than before. I wish I hadn't expressed all that, and realized how repressed I am from my true, ideal self (as a pretty boy).

Sorry for the rambling and the neuroses. I'm just a stupid fool and I appreciate you all rending to my psychological dysfunctions. I love you, strangers.