/lit/ - Literature

I smoke WEED and get HIGH before reading comfy shit like TREASURE ISLAND in my BED feeling COMFY and COZY ass hell

I am a NEET, have been for last 2 years. Didn't go to college. Have a part time job, not stable.

These days I am planning to start my "self improvement journey" and as a part of it I want to get a hobby that gives long-lasting result that will also make me a better person.

So I want to start writing, not to be an author, but just to create something for me to look back.

Ok, let me be very honest with you guys. I am not very smart. and I have been jerking off almost everyday for at least 3-4 years at this point, So I probably have fried all my neural circuits in brain. I have zero creativity.

I am not a very good reader (yet). I have read only 7/8 books outside my text books so far. I have never written anything in my life.

English isn't my 1st language. But if I write, I will need to do it in english, beacuse right now the inner thoughts in my head happens in English.

I don't have any shame admitting that I am a loser, and have to start my journey from zero.

What should I do?
Where should I start?