/lit/ - Literature

Since high school, I have been able to convince myself that it is not worth looking for a girl at the moment, it will only hurt, and take a lot of effort and time.

It's been three years since I've been at university and I've started thinking about it. I feel like I have created some kind of aura that immediately rejects the possibility of a relationship. It is possible that I just lost the opportunity to feel the attention to myself, to give the same in return.

I am no longer human. I've lost perhaps a vital mechanism that will leave me alone forever. I need honest, preferably lifelong and meaningful relationships. I feel like I've missed all the chances to find the right person and now that I've only realized it is too late.

That's my fate.