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All religion ultimately boils down to aesthetics. Even superficial beliefs such as heaven, hell, the resurrection of the body, etc. are just aesthetic mental imprints on experiential phenomena that can't be verified by a "believer" until one has gone through the process of apparently getting there.

That is not say this negatives the religious pursuit however; in fact, the sheer power aesthetics has on our minds makes it almost a necessity that the aspirant seeker will be drawn to one form of devotion or another at some point in their life. The Hindus even have a term for this - bhakti yoga - the pursuit of the Divine and egoless awakening through heartfelt devotion to one's deity or avatar of choice.

So, OP, you may continue or not continue to "believe" in the Christian God and pursue Christianity as you see fit. Always keep in mind, however, that these are just your temporal projections of Divinity onto the True Divinity that lacks any colour, shape or form. And perhaps, if you keep an open mind and open heart, even your devotion to Christ shall lead you to higher states of exaltation.