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I was raised atheist/agnostic, never baptised or read a religious text but it's pretty obvious to me that there is some higher power out there in the universe. I think I want to be converted but I'm not sure in what direction I should go, or if I should even go in one, I just hate sitting on this agnostic fence where I live like I'm secular but can also believe in that which is infinite and unknowable. I feel like I'm not tethered to something I'm supposed to be and it becomes unbearable at times. I've had plenty of phenomenal interaction but that lead to me undergoing psychological assessment because of a suicide attempt (I had a psychotic delusion that "god wants me to kill myself"). Am I just lost? can reading a book really provide the necessary proof to make me religious, or will only experiences alter my perception.

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