/lit/ - Literature

>>20375455
This and the intro to ZE WURLD as Wll UND Representation on Librivox

I upanishat myself with ebullient joy, m8s. Buddhenhauer is basically encased in a sophistication of Berkeley's first step of Principles of Human Knowledge.
FFS you green newbie lurkers want to pick the heaviest most sophisticated book there is, Schopenhauer's monster of monsters and the intro tells you to fuck right off yet you post your incel screeds here without ever finding out the road starts with Berkeley and Locke because (human contact has become so scarce, sorry m80s take care now).

An Uncle of mine died last week. It was the 'Rona but that's no my point. He got tubed on Easter Sunday, and he died the next day, on his Name Day. Like most people here, everyone was a devout Christian. Prayers, hired nuns to pray extra hard, whatever. And I have to ask; why did the All-Merciful and All-Loving God let such a servant of His die? He wasn't rich. His wife is now more or less out of a job. They have two underage kids. How will they prosper, or at the very least, live? Why did God not simply cure him?
>inb4 juvenile b8
It's not b8. I've literally never gotten a good response to this.
>inb4 muh Free Will
I can accept that, kinda for when the age old "wHy DoEs GoD aLlOw EvIl To ExIsT" argument comes up. But this wasn't a case of one person deciding to hurt someone. Like cancer, or natural disasters, it was totally random. His organism wasn't tough enough and he died. But how am I to worship a God that is "All-Loving" yet does nothing to actually help his servants? Kids die for no reason. Innocent and devout people get cancer and go through torture, because suicide sends you to eternal torture. Meanwhile cunty, evil people never get any punishment. Me and my family have always lived like the Good Book says. It's always ended up fucking us over. Nothing in this religion makes any sense. The comfort is momentary and superficial. And nobody ever has any actual arguments. I'll ask you this.
>be Don ChadWorth IV
>be born rich, handsome and able to do whatever you want
>you can be a Good Samaritan and do good deeds until your death
>if you choose to be a good Christian, you go to Heaven

>be Jack Jones
>born in a gated community, good looking, with friends and family
>born in good times with no strife
>go to Church, marry a nice girl, have a family, do good deeds
>nothing to challenge you
>go to Heaven

>be Slavitsky Karowszti
>be born in some war-torn Slavic cunt where gangs rule and the only way to survive is to be as evil as them
>stand up for you and yours, do some bad deeds
>LMAO eternal torture

>be random guy born in time of strife and war
>fight for your nation
>LMAO eternal torture

>be random kid
>get bone cancer at 13
>can't take the pain anymore, choose euthanasia
>LMAO eternal torture

>be Mgubdubu
>born in some African shithole
>random general comes over, takes you, dopes you and turns you into an assassin
>get shot in the head
>LMAO eternal toture
Why does the All-Merciful, All-Loving God keep the rules the same for every period, place and person, yet allow people to live drastically different lives with no Divine Intervention or any sort of help? How is any sane person supposed to worship someone who lets you fend off the wolves yourself, then punishes you for killing the wolves, but rewards the village retard who stayed home while you were slaying the wolves and protecting him? Give me a proper answer.

Hey /lit/,

I hate to make a blog post on here but I really feel lost. It seems like every facet of my life has contributed to the current situation that I find myself in, and it is a situation undeserving of continued existence.

To begin with, I was born into a family as a twin, an unanticipated bonus that sent my family on a financial trajectory to move out of their house in the northeast to an accommodating location in the midwest, where my parents both ended up taking on full-time jobs to be able to support our family, leaving my grandparents to look after me and my sister for much of our youth.

This wouldn't be enough cause on its own for my current lack of existential worth, but the trend continued. My twin outshined me in school, both socially and academically, and it was not long before I fell in with the crowd of stoners, rejects, and burnouts that many of you here probably knew in school. Although I tried to remain positive and maintained a formidable academic standing, it was just not impactful enough when applying to programs that would cement my capability.

What started out as small differences began snowballing into career-changing effects. At first it was just me taking an extra year in grade school to be admitted to the gifted program. By high school, I was being rejected from international exchange programs and being shoehorned into minimum wage fast food jobs for the summer while my twin studied physics in Germany. When it came to apply to university, I was deferred from every big name institution I aspired to, ivy or not, while my twin was accepted priority to Princeton.

I am now finishing my 2nd year of study as an Environmental Science student at the largest institution in my state (which, I should mention, had to accept me due to my high school rank), and I couldn't have hit more of a dead end. What academic interests I have maintained seem to be leading me to a path akin to that of William Stoner, destined to be obscured and buried by the advance of time, in a branch of research of little concern to most, barely getting by even with student loans.

>>10605241
a gril who liked me a lot gave it to me years ago and i never read it, it's been collecting dust and i just came upon it just now
admittedly a little scared to read it, since she's long gone and presumably happy
oh well, i have enough beer to suppress feelings of regret if i end up loving it and realizing that she, despite her flaws, was probably the best thing i could have kept in my life, so i guess here i go

hope you enjoyed my diary, desu