/lit/ - Literature

This post is about the dilemma between love and philosophy. I will tell you my story shortly.

>be with the dreamgirl for 5 years
>stay and study together for 2 years
>both are unstable, immoral, hateful against all else
>be prince charming for 4 years
>last year, sudden depression
>start writing, painting, expressing anything which were supressed
>gf goes wattafak
>blame her for not understanding, not trying to
>she doesnt care, thinks its just a phase
>me going through existentialism meanwhile
>me start not giving a fuck about anything at all
>she goes insane even more
>blame her for not thinking, not feeling, not expressing
>blame her for making me supress all these feelings inside me, blame her for exchanging everything I have against her happiness
...
>when alone, be creative as youve never been, write the best fucking shit, paint the best fucking thing, think and comprehend everything those had been put aside
>when shes around, just a touch or kiss, dont give a fuck about anything, meaningless happiness, forget anything, no more talent or inspiration at all

FUCK THIS we're on the edge of a breakup, and this is fucking retarded. and it's almost impossible to explain to any person.

anyone here going/went through anything like this?

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>>6175643

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