/lit/ - Literature

>>19483229
My sister called me, if I want to be vaccinated tomorrow. I said no, that I will wait. She got angry and tried to convince me. I mentioned her that the usual, that the vax long term symptoms haven't been examined, myocarditis and pericarditis in young people, etc. She said those where only far remote isolated cases, to trust the science, it is a safe technology, that there are thousands of papers saying it is effective, that honest people worked in it, and that I would SURELY DIE if I didn't get vaxxed and happened to catch the cough. That people are dying, people who haven't got the vax around her are falling like flies. Yeah, sure I understand.
I gaslight myself, believing I am in a bubble or echo-chamber. I am an schizo, that truly there isn't any truth behind what I think. This timeline feels so hopeless. I feel what is going on is fucking nasty. It is fucking nasty that what is left of my life, people are going to tell me that I will SURELY DIE and kill old grannies. I doubt of myself and others. Yet it makes me feel so wrong to bear different opinions than my family. They come from the right place, I am a scientist myself, and perhaps I am projecting unto others, but it is fucking piss easy to bullshit. Lately I think the dying elites nuked my generation so we couldn't stand on our feet while they dredge the fuck out of the earth and imprison us in a digital shithole. I am not sure why I prefer to kill myself than to take the vax, it feels so utterly hopeless, like a never ending nightmare. I hope they force vaccination in the US so it is no longer my choice.