/lit/ - Literature

>>21003252
I'm still trying to learn and understand that everything I have ever experienced happened in the same reality. My past experiences feel so disconnected from each other, partially because of a chaotic past, me having so many different identities and then isolation. The past feels like images with a specific mood or setting, but it isn't, it had all the shades, all the possible perspectives and chaos in it, just like I do now. I learn something new - it existed back then as well. It always did, for so long. When will I wake up, how can I wake up. When do I get reality back. When will I live a coherent life, when will I experience identity again. I'm stuck in a pathology, I don't react to reality as it is, I'm acting out mental illness, I act as if there is something that should stop me from acting normally, while it doesn't have to. I became my overthinking